I'm sure most of us wish we had more guts. Guts to say things, guts to do things. Sometimes I wish I could have multiple lives. There are all these conflicting pieces of my personality, sometimes I wish I could just pick one and go with it for awhile. Then completely change directions a few years later. But I don't have the guts. Here are five things I wish I had the guts to do:
1). Go live abroad for a few years. I love visiting other countries, and would love to live in one for awhile. Just for a year, or two or three. Italy or maybe Spain. It would be preferable to be somewhere that I already know the language.
|Sunset view from Piazza Michelangelo in Florence, Italy when I studied abroad.|
The problem is I like to be a part of what is going on here. In the U.S., with my family and friends. So I stay put.
2). Give up most of my hobbies and live a city life. I have so many hobbies that require a lot of stuff. And they require a major time commitment. Waterski equipment, camping equipment for waterski tournaments, snow ski equipment, the list goes on and on. Sometimes I wish I could get rid of all of the stuff, get an apartment in the city without worrying about how much storage space it has and just live in and enjoy the city. Stay put on weekends. Enjoy restaurants and parks and museums, etc.
But that isn't how I live life. And I don't have the guts to change it. I'd just like another life to do all of the other things I want to do.
3). Go scuba diving. And this one isn't changing. I don't like going in the ocean. This may be a completely irrational fear, but I am terrified of the creatures underneath. Sharks in particular. But sting rays, horse shoe crabs, jelly fish, you name it I'm freaked out by the thought of being in the water with them.
|The 5 second snorkel in St. Lucia.|
This is as gutsy as I get: Proof that I got in the water to attempt snorkeling on our honeymoon. The water was dark and cloudy. I think I broke a record getting out.
4). Hold a spider. Be near a spider. See a spider. I. Can't. STAND. Spiders. I am terrified of them. I am not going to even consider posting a picture because I won't be able to look at my own blog post.
At this point, I have to stop myself. Because I feel really lame for resorting to holding a spider. Yes, I am not gutsy enough to hold a spider, but really? I can't come up with something more interesting than that? I even have my husband HELPING me with this blog post because I was having trouble coming up with 4 and 5. Everything I've written about is absolutely true. But sharks and spiders? Really?
The truth is, I am pretty gutsy. And the hubs will be the first to tell you that. I am a cautious person, but I will try a lot of things once. Cautiously gutsy, I guess. I mean, I won't eat bugs or be covered in snakes (they are right up there with sharks and spiders...maybe it's an S thing). But I go off of waterski jumps, I've water skied in January in Wisconsin, I ski black diamond runs, I've camped in the Everglades (that one was under protest) and in the Boundary Waters, heck I've even jumped out of a perfectly good airplane for no reason other than to say I did it once.
So instead of writing a number 5, here are a few pictures of things I HAVE been gutsy enough to do.
|Landing my jumps at Collegiate Nationals 2004|
|Skiing in January in Wisconsin. Ignore the form. I couldn't feel my body anymore.|
|I survived the Boundary Waters!|
|Jumping out of a perfectly good airplane.|